So my life has become the biggest mess and unmess (not a worddd!) at the same time as of this week.

At the beginning of the week, Josh and I made plans to hangout on Thursday. And that didn't happen at all and I think he's pisses. But I think, the next day or something I get this instant message from Andrew [for anyone who doesn't know, I dated this guy three times etc etc] apologizing and shiz. We start talking and we make places to meet up at Caro's the next day. But I suck at this memory shit, so just to keep it short and simple: Andrew and I are dating again. Yeah, fourth time. I can practically see people being like "omg, this is the Rick thing like all over again." Everyone seems upset about it. And when I mean everyone, I mean half the people around here have their panties in a wad about it and most of the people I talk to are practically being all "shammmmmme alice, shame on youuu." Whatever. Whatever happens, happens. I've informed him if anything happens like the last times, its over. Done. And I'm never talking to him again. All of that is true. I hate this breaking up, getting back together, breaking up, getting back together shit. Its pointless and I really didn't want to have to focus on a relationship right now, but I don't know. Some things seem right and some things don't; what can I say? But I'll say this: if shit happens, then I'm not dwelling on it. Heartbreak is an imaginary thing. I'm done with dating my exboyfriends. I made a "New Years Resolution" not to date any more of my exboyfriends. OH SO YEAH I'M HORRIBLE.

I don't know.

It seems like most of my life is coming together though, so that's good. I seem to be growing up in a sense. Tomorrow [Saturday] I'm going with my bestfriend David to look at tuxedoes and prom dresses because we're going to Hibriten's prom in April. The 18th, I have to go apply for financial aid.

Jonathan is talking about moving back here. Well, not in Lenoir or Hickory, but in North Carolina. We're talking about getting an apartment together when I turn eighteen, which would be super sweet. Mmhm.

Things are exciting!
Well, not that exciting, but I'm really content.